Kristin's Journal

okay so there are 12 months and 15 days until i say i do and become Mrs. Gary Bayer II... and i already feel as if my head is going to explode i have so much to do in one year that it's unbelieveable... i can't remember if i've made the plans or what and i seem to be back tracking ALOT... i've got some ideas as to what dress and the color scheme is but other then that i'm compleatly clueless and i have no idea where to begin i feel as if i'm running around in circles... atleast i have something to take my mind of the pregnancy... i'm so anxious i can't wait... again... i have 3 months and some odd days left and i'm going nuts... i'm having those crazy dreams about my fiance leaving the baby places... and my cousin leaving the baby places... about baby just being born and already walking and stuff it's nuts... i went through all this with damyan but each pregnancy truly is different... well anyways i guess i should just break down and buy a binder and keep everything in that... well anyways i guess i could stop waisting time and get some work done so...
love always
Kristin

OKAY I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I'M HAVING A GIRL I'M SO HAPPY!!! AFTER THIS ONE I'M SO DONE HAVING KIDS... I'VE BEEN FEELING MOVEMENT BUT TODAY WHEN THE ULTRASTANAGRAPHER PUT THE LOTION ON MY STOMACH SHE STARTED MOVING AND KICKING AT THE CAMERA AND SHE STUCK HER HEAD RIGHT IN MY STOMACH... BUT ANYWAYS HERE'S THE ULTRA SOUND PICS... TAKE A LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL...

http://www.msnusers.com/kat0jhi531h8ajhmule9rboch7/files/Pictures%2FKristin.jpg

PS WE HAVE SO FAR TWO NAMES TO DECIDE FROM
1.) Ororo Monroe
or
2.)Zoey Maddison...

BUT THATS JUST SO FAR...

Okay well i found out in december that i was pregnant again and i'm hoping for a girl this time... i didn't want to say anything till i was 100% sure that i was going to be able to carry this prenancy to term... cause two months befor i found out that i was pregnant and it ended in miscarrage a month later... but my doctor says that everything is fine i'm past that critical point... i find out in three weeks if it's a boy or a girl and i'm so excited... Gary's more excited then i am... AND... i finally got a ring... it's 14ct white gold and it's got 7 diamonds... one large one in the center and three on each side of it it's 10ct all together... it's so pretty and so me... Damyan is getting so big he's 18 months now and he's doing great sept for right now he's throwin a tantrum so g2g
love always kristin

Well... it's been a while since i posted on here but i just felt like i needed to get things off my chest... my son turned 15 months old on the 5th and he's getting bigger and bigger every day... and he's talking so much... he says phone, and mommy ( he even calls me mean momma when i put him in T.O.) and daddy and dog, tree, and he has a "girlfriend" our friends have a little girl named Nalani and she'll be 2 christmas eve... but she's so cute and she'll give Damyan hugs and kisses all the time and they are always playing together... she's a real cute kid...

ALSO i've lost almost 100 lbs since i had damyan... after i had him i weighed in at 273 (the fattest i'll ever get!!!) and in a little over a year i'm now down to what i was in jr. high... which at that time was fat but now is SKINNY!!! :-) 10 more lbs and i'll have reach 100 lbs lost... and i owe it all to Tae Bo believe it or not... well that and eating like a rabbit for about 6 months... the tae bo helped me get alot of the weight off though and eating healthier just kept it from comming back... plus i'm not a master at tae bo... hahahahaha watch gary!!!!

well i've got alot to do today so i'll get going now...


LOVE ALWYAS
Kristin

well things are going pretty good at this moment... damyan will be a year old in two months and he's doing so much... he finally learned how to crawl and he's starting to try to walk all by him self... all he can do tho is hold on to stuff and walk which is sorta bad cause he always tries to pull himself up on stuff i'm afraid will fall over on him... he says momma now and sometimes he can get out da da... and he always says ba ba... he says doggie and kitty too... it's great... he's getting so big he weighs 29.7 lbs and is 28 inches long!!! he loves everything.. he's not a picky eater... and he loves the animals so thats cool... he's doing great... i swear man i got super lucky!!!

anyways gary has a job now he's working at concord manufacturing... and brings home about 330 every week... and i got a new job at gilberts steak house... which is the best job i've ever had i work in the kitchen i do some line cooking and mostly pantry... then every now and then they stick me in the dish tank and i have to wash dishes for almost 8 hours some times more... i love it i get about 30 hours a week...

well anyways just wanted to get a few things down so i'll write more later....
love always
Kristin

Well lets see where to start... i've had nothing but good news for the past month that it's not even funny... and i'm taking it all in and loving every bit of it... it's not every day that good fortune comes my way and to be getting it everyday for the past few months just blows me away... well #1 on my list is that my son is doing wonderful... he's healthy and strong and getting bigger my the minute!!! second is i'm being promoted at my job... i know it's not really all that big of a deal cause i work at long john silvers BUT it's a big deal to me... i'll be getting a 2 to 2.5 dollar raise... and i'll be management so i get to boss people around... hehehehe... so thats cool... then i found out last week that this girl i work with wants me to be her birthing partner... she said that she knows it's usually suppose to be the father or some one in her family but she knows that i've gone through it and she knows that i will help her out... i told her i'd be honered but i'd have to think about it... thats a lot of responsibility... but anyways... i've been getting hella tips at work... yeah at work through the drive-thru... in the last three weeks i've brought home about 35 dollars a week... it's cool... but anyways i got a lot of stuff to do and damyan is starting to get tired of sittin in his "baby jail" so i'll talk to everyone later... hope to hear from some one...
love always
Kristin

well it's a new year with new beginings and new friendships... i'm so happy i made it through a nother year.. Damyan is now four months old and he's doing great and getting soooo big... i can't believe how much he's grown... well i can't stay long i the roads are getting bad and i have to get damyan home befor the get worse... hope everyone had good holidays...
love always
Kristin

Well happy thanksgiving every one...  oh today is going to be a very busy day... right now i'm at my moms and nothings going on... i have to go to garys moms at 12 cause i told her i'd help her finish up plus i can start partying before i have to get gary (he he he) and dinner isn't untill whenever gary gets there... then i have to come back here for dessert then around 7 7:30 i gotta go out to my dads just to make an apperince... but in about 15 mins i have to go get Damyan's baby swing from my grandma's so he'll have something to play in while we eat and stuff like that... but anyways just wanted to say happy thanksgiving to all my lj friends and family...

love always

Kristin

well damyan turned 2 months on the 5th and he went in for his shot... now i must admit, i was blessed with a wonderful baby... but these shots i don't know if i can deal with... i've never heard him scream as loud as he did today after he came home... and the cry he had at the doctors everytime they poked him i just couldn't deal with it... i cried my self... just cause i know how i feel about shots and to know that he's going thru that pain... man... i couldn't help it i cried right along with him...

~*Anyways*~

on a lighter note... i might get to paint my bathroom this week end... i'm so tired of lookin at them plain ass white walls... and my dad said i could paint it and gary said that if he had enough money this week i could paint it... so i got my fingers crossed...

ATTENTION KAYLA:
my grandma talked to your grandma and she said that Amiee's soft spots were closing to fast and you had to rush her up to ann arbor... i've been checking every day to see if you've wrote anything about it... but you haven't i hope she's okay and i say a few words for her every night... i hope everything goes okay... please get a hold of me and let me know... 416-6584...

well i gotta go so i'll talk to ya'll later kay
love always
Kristin

Well Damyan is now 15 days old and he's doing wonderful... he's the best baby i could ever ask for... he's so cute and so funny with all the faces he makes i just can't believe it... and Garys family, well Thresa (his mom) and Brad (Thresa's boyfriend of 17 years) and T.J.  and Jut... are just so in love with him... How heather feels i could really care less... but anyways i'm not writting cause i'm happy i have a wonderful baby... i'm  happy cause of the conversation Gary and i had the other night... we were watching Fresh Prince and Will was getting married, well his fiance and him ran away to Vegas to get married and they had a Shaft theme wedding... well Gary said thats the way he wants his wedding to be (just joking hopefully..)... now this is a statement coming from the man who told me that he was never getting married cause he didn't believe you should have to prove how much you love someone by signing a piece of paper... and because he doesn't believe in god... okay fine... well i looked at him and said that i thought he didn't want to get married... and he said well i can change my mind can't i? yeah theres nothing i can say about that everyone's aloud to change thier mind... well then he said if i asked you to marry me what would you say... and i said that i'd have to think about it... cause i would i'm mean i'm 19... and yeah i have a baby and thats a young age to have a baby, but to make a commitment like that i mean i don't want to end up getting a divorce five or more years down the road... ya know... well i thought about it and i asked him if he was serious and he said yes... and i said that if he was really serious he'd have to ask my dad before any dates or anything like that could be set... and he said he would... he said he's going to take my dad out for lunch or something and ask him then... so it's not really offical yet, not till he asks my dad but when he does... then well

 

     I'M GETTING MARRIED!!! :-)

My babys daddy loves me for real!!!  it just amazes me how much he's changed... he went from " if you ever get pregnant i'll leave you and i don't believe in marrige" to " i help father this baby we're keeping it and i'm gonna ask your dad if i can marry you" ! Finally someone is smiling down on me and doing everything they can to make me that... Thank you Grandma...

well i have to get home if Damyan wakes Gary up and i'm not there Gary will get scared... so i'll talk to ya'll later

love always

Kristin

http://jinasunshine.com/Friends/Damyan%20Michael.htm

this is my aunt jina's website... she's posted pics of me when i was pregnant and at the baby shower and pics of Damyan with mommy and daddy at the hospital... i never knew that one little tiny thing could bring me so much joy... i love him so much... and he's doing great... healthy as and ox and stronger then ever he's only 9 days old and he can already roll over onto his belly and lift and hold his head up for about a min at a time... it's wonderful... i love being a mom... well i gotta go... it's dinner time so i'll talk to ya later
love always
Kristin

well my beautiful baby boy was born sunday... he's so perfect... he's the most adorable thing in the world and i love finally being able to hold him and have him home... if you want to see him you can go to this web page this should take you straight to his pic and stuff... if not, if you have to type his name in you it's Damyan... i'm so proud of him...

http://www.footehealth.org/body.cfm?id=294&action=detail&ref=1824



well i'll talk to you guys later... kayla call me 990-9643


love always
Kristin

Okay to ellaborate more on what i wrote yesterday... My Doctor checked me wensday and he found that i'm 70% effaced and i was 1.5 cm dialated... which was all fine and dandy but it hurt like hell when he was checking me... not to mention... he pushed on my stomach so damn much i thought i was going to pop the baby out right then and there... but i didn't so... anyways we talked abit about my options... and he said that i could just let everything go naturally or i could have an enduction... well i'm so excited and so is gary we decided to go with the enduction... so he gave me this paper with instructions and on wensday i have to get up at 5 am, call labor and delivery, and see if they have a bed ready for me... if they do then i'm grabbing my tooth brush and i'm heading to the hospital... if not then i have to wait till theres a bed ready for me and if none become available then i have to reschedual it... but i've already started loosing my plug and i'm starting to have more contractions... but nothing in a pattern... and they're about 45 mins to and hour apart... all i know is he'll be here soon... and i can't wait... yesterday i had to have a non stress test... just to make sure he's okay... and when you have these test done you have to see the babys heart rate rise and fall two times in twenty mins... and if it doesn't then you get an ultrasound... and he's got 8 things they look at to make sure he's okay... well this little fart only had one rise and fall in the first twenty mins... and in the second he moved so damn much they could only count one hill... so i had to go have an ultrasound... everything turned out fine... he got an 8 out of 8 score... and everythings fine... i got a picture of him and he's got his lips puckered like he's trying to give us a kiss... well anyways... i gotta get going so i'll talk to you all later
love always
Kristin

okay just so everyone knows... i had a doctors appointment yesterday and yesterday was also my due date... the doctor checked me and he found out i'm 70% effaced and i was 1.5 cm dialated... he also told me that if i don't have the baby by wensday then thier going to enduce me... and coencidently wensday (Sept 8th) is my baby sister jordan's birthday and she'll be a year old this year... but anyways i have a non stress test i have to go to so i'll write more later
Kristin

everythings moving so slowly... i haven't had any contractions and i'm due in like four days... i have a dr. apt on the first which is my due date and i'm gonna have my dr check and see if i've dialated at all or if i'm even effacing yet... i can't take this anymore... i want to have this baby now... yesterday on the way back from garys moms i though maybe i was having a contraction but it was just the baby pushing on my belly... well i told gary and he was like REALLY OKAY LETS GO TO THE HOSPITAL... i keep telling him no matter what the only way i can go to the hospital is if i'm having extreamly strong contractions or if they're five mins apart or if my water breaks... but if we go to early they'll send us home... and i told him to be prepared cause we'll prolly be up there for a while... but any ways my brother and i are going to pick out the color i'm going to be painting my living room and bathroom and i want to price some things... so i'll talk to everyone later
love always
Kristin

well as of yesterday i have offically one week... and everythings ready... well everything but a car seat... and i'm still working on that... but other then that i've got it all i've got a bassenett a changing station which now that i think about it i don't really need that cause i could just change him on the floor or on the bed... but oh well it will give me more storage area... i've got everything he'll need for baths... everything he'll need for this winter... bottles baby wipes diapers... i've even picked up a few things of formula that way i'm prepared... i just hope that his system will accept the formula that i want to give him... if not... if i need to switch my little sister takes the same kind of formula that i bought so i'll just give it to my dad... i'm so anxious i can't wait... i think garys more excited then i am... see it's getting to the point were it's REALLY extreamly hard for me to move around and stuff... it's just really unconfortable... so anytime i moan or grunt or anything like that the first words out of his mouth is... "what are you having a contraction? do we need to go to the hospital? is he coming out yet?" lol... and while i find all this very amusing i wish it were happing... but it's not... not yet atleast... oh then yesterday at lamazz classes we were on the floor doing breathing excersises (or how ever thats spelled) and you had to sit with your back against your partner (both facing the same way) and just kinda lean on your partner, well then she had us put our hands on our belly's with our partner and just kinda rub our bellys... well gary though that it would be a good idea to just kinda squeeze a little and i almost barffed all over him... well anyways i'm gonna get going... i have house wife chores to do...lol..
ttyl
love always
Kristin

okay first things first... Today is mine and garys 1 year anniversery... yep thats right we've been together for exactally one year... thats so crazy to me... it's the longest and happiest real relationship i've ever been in... lol.. i'm so happy... and this morning he said "happy anniversery honey, i love you, and for many more years to come!!" i was like aww... promise... and he promised... and out of all the promises i was ever made... and out of all the things i've ever been told by a guy... i believe him... ya know that question where do you see your self five years from now... well i see my self with gary and our son... playing at the playground and having the time of our lives... and to be honest... the only way that wouldn't happen is if gary found some one else... cause i don't think i could ever leave such a wonderful man... and i just hope that it stays that way after the baby is born... cause i heard that some times relationships fall apart after you have a child cause the man feels neglected... but i don't think i could ever neglect my baby or my man...

Speaking of babies... Brandie lost her baby just like i knew she would... and ya know what... that little bitch better not ever let me see her outside of gary's moms house ever... see at Threasa's i have to keep my mouth shut and my hands to myself... otherwise i think i'd smack that bitch every time i walked by her... and go figure she told Threasa (gary's mom btw) that she lost the baby cause of all the stress she's been put through... in other words meaning all the shit SHE started with me and all the shit SHE started with heather... but every one knows better... well all know that it's because she can't stop sticking that powder up her nose... and she acted all depressed yesterday in which i can understand that she'd be upset i mean hell this is the third babys she's lost but you'd think that after the first time... and the baby dying because of her doing coke then the second time she would have stopped and the third time she would have stopped... and i'm sorry i can't have any sympothy for some one like her... she killed all them babys cause she wouldn't stop doing drugs... and ya know i'll admit... okay yeah i did coke for a week straight and the day after i stopped i found out i was pregnant... but i came home that night and heather looked at me and said... " You look sad, wanna line befor gary gets home... that way we'll be one ahead of him..." and ya know i had a chance to do it then but i didn't cause i was more concerned about my baby... not to mention after i found out gary bought a teener and left it just chillin on top of our dresser all ready to be lined up and everything and as tempted as i was i didn't touch it... and everyone can look at me and say i'm a bad person for doing it to begin with... but unless you've done it... you don't know what it's like... and it's only addicting if you let it be that way... i mean the only thing that causes you to O.D. or to be come addicted is when you come down from the high... cause thats when you want it the most... but if you eat or sleep during that time... it's easy as hell to get over it... and brandie just doesn't know how to say NO... and thats why she lost that baby... cause of her nose problem... and as far as i'm concerned the day she did meth (the same day i was suppose to take her for her pregnancy test) is that day she should have lost that baby... she doesn't deserve another kid... hell the first one she has hasn't seen her in three years... he lives with his grandparents... because she's to unfit to take care of him... and it's her own fault...

okay well now that i've got that off my chest... i feel alot better...

Goodness i can't wait to have my baby... i can't wait to hold him and see his beautiful brown eyes... and i can't wait to see the little hands and feet that have been kicking and poking me for that past three months... i just want to hold him... and hear him cry... which i know will get really tiring after the third or fourth time... but hearing his laughter and when he starts to talk... and walk... will all be worth it... i just can't wait to see my baby... well anyways i have a lot to do today so i'm gonna get going... i'll keep everyone updated...
love always
Kristin

well i've got less then a month to go now... the babys final due date is Sept. 1st but that doctor said that he could be born anytime between then and the 7th... i can't wait till i can hold my baby in my hands instead of in my tummy... lol... well i got a lot of shopping to do just wanted update a little and let every one know i'm okay...
love always
Kristin

well i don't have too much to say today... just wanted to let everyone know that i'm still alive and the babys okay... i have another doc apt fri and i should be getting my phone tomorrow... i can't wait... i'm tired of sitting at home not having a phone... but i know once i get it i'm going to regret it... cause i hate it when people call over and over and don't give you any time to breath... i just hope heather (garys sis) don't get ahold of our number cause that would suck... but fortunately i do have caller id so i'll be able to tell when it's her... and i've got an answering machine that way if she calls from tj's phone i can just let the machine get it and not have to worry about it... i see my friend craig yesterday... he gave me a ride home from michigan works... and then he hung out with us for a while... i like cj he's a good guy... gary and i got on the topic of god parents for Damian... and for the life of me we can't come up with anyone we really truly trust... i brought up that if anything i'd be happy with my dad and donna but then we got to talking about it and my dad and donna have thier hands full trying to raise the five kids they have now... then we started talking about his sister Danell and her new husband but gary doesn't want to say yes not knowing her husband yet and have him turn out to be an asshole ya know... then i came up with my aunt Jina but i don't know if she's still married or what so i can't say yes to her... but those are the three couples we have it narrowed down to if anything ever happens to us... well i gotta go home and clean... we kinda made a mess this morning throwing stuff at eachother and the house is now yucky lookin lol... but anyways ttyl
love always
Kristin

Gary told me to hang out with my mom for a little while cause he only had 11 rooms to clean and he'd be out early... well that was at nine and it's twelve... the only reason why i'm on here is cause i can't sleep anymore...

anyways

yesterday gary and i seen tj's girlfriend's car go by and there was a guy in it that wasn't tj... well us being the good loving friend and brother that we are we went over there to taddle on rosanna... and come to find out they left rosanna's car at her moms and took her moms car... so anyways... we get there and the first person i see is heather... garys sister... and she's trying her hardest to be all nice to me... well justin told her about all that stuff that happened between brandie and me... and about how i almost beat her ass... and let me tell you something that bitch (brandie) has grown some balls since she got pregnant... she told heather that heather will never set eyes or hands on that baby and when heather walked away from her... trying to be the bigger person brandie came after her and said fuck you you bitch fuck you... well heather don't like her anyways and doesn't want jut to have a baby by her so she almost beat brandie's ass... and heather told her the same thing i did... as soon as you loose that baby i'm going to be right there whippin your ass!!! then we took heather over to brians and on the way there heather said you guys yell at me for not calling but you guys don't call me anymore... and all i can think about is kristins getting ready to have that baby and i'm suppose to be in the delivery room... and so on and so forth and all i can think is please shut up and brandie's got the idea... as much as i hate to say that... but i honestly don't want heather around my baby either... not after what she said about me and knowing what kinda lifestyle she lives fuck that... but i'm not going to stop her from seeing that baby... she just won't do things with him... but anyways... i can't think of much else to talk about... so i don't know ttyl
love always
Kristin